Quality Time

It’s a tradition in my family to always pick out funny cards for any occasion, including Mother’s Day. So I was quite proud of my accomplishment this year, when I selected a card that read on the outside: “Mom, now that I’m a parent, I understand what you went through in raising me…” On the inside: “Hell. Happy Mother’s Day.”

I know I wasn’t the easiest kid to deal with, and I’m glad my mom had the patience to deal with a kid who was really too smart for her own good.

I never suspected that my mother had any regrets in how she raised me. After all, I graduated near the top of my class, attended a well-respected university where I graduated with honors, spent a summer studying in England, married, bought a house, and gave birth to two beautiful daughters of my own. Sure, I’ve got my share of problems, too, but I thought mom had to be pretty proud of her job as mother. In fact, I often wondered how I could ever measure up to her standard in raising my own children.

A few years ago, mom gave me a small piece of advice that made me realize that no matter how well we do, guilt can plague any mother. I don’t remember how the conversation came up, but at one point she became very serious and told me, “Just promise me one thing: when your daughter is sick, take your sick time and be with her. Because no matter what’s going on at work, no matter your deadlines or how much people say they need you to come in that day, they don’t need you as much as your kid.”

Truer words never spoken.

My mom went on to say that she regrets not staying home with me more when I was sick. Instead, she would go to work, believing that they needed her more at work. She usually called in my grandmother to be with me for the day. But she was right – I didn’t want my grandmother, I wanted my mom. My mom was the one I felt most comfortable with, and even though it was the same Campbell’s canned soup, chicken-noodle soup somehow tasted better when my mom made it.

When she retired a few years ago, she had nearly a year of sick time saved up from her 30 years of service. One year. And she could only cash out a tiny fraction of that time. She looked at that lost time as lost opportunity to be with me when I needed her. I’ve tried to tell her that I understood that she needed to work, but I don’t think she’s fully forgiven herself for it. I sometimes think she is trying to make up for that time by spending more time with her granddaughters now.

And so I’ve taken her advice and vowed to spend as much quality time with Cordy and Mira as I can. When one of them is sick, I do all I can to be there for them. And I remember that work will come and go, but nothing can replace the comfort a mother can provide to her children.

Happy Mother’s Day, mom. You probably don’t believe me, but I do actually hear your advice. Sometimes I even follow it. And I want you to know that while we may not have had as much time together as we both would have liked when I was a kid, it was always quality time.

me & my mom, 1976
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Comments

  1. I love this post because I can see not taking the time off as being a regret of mine also. Thank you and I hope that you had a good mother’s day.

  2. 🙂 You look like her a little… Sweet.

    Happy Mother’s DAy to you and your mom. That’s great advice she gave you!

  3. You guys totally look alike! And it’s true, somethings are worth listening to. I’m sure we will get the same satisfaction out of hearing that from our own children in about 30 years.

  4. What wonderful advice and so glad that you listen!!

  5. Anonymous says

    Good idea from a good mother. But who gets sick days anymore?
    I’m not being inflammatory; I really want to know.

  6. Many companies still offer sick time. My current job only offers unpaid sick time, but my old job provided earned paid sick time.

  7. christina, I read this post right after I called out of work, since both my boys are sick(this has been going on for 6 days, but just as one kid gets better…) I was standing here feeling guilty about calling out, as I know it will be (another) verbal warning, then I read this post. Thanks, it was exactly what I needed to hear!

  8. Anonymous says

    I didn’t know anyone offered sick days anymore. Every job I’ve seen lately offers a “time bank,” so vacation days and sick days are lumped together. I don’t know any hospitals that offered sick days (ironic, I know-because you want your nurse to stay home when she’s sick.). One of my friends used to work at Columbus Children’s (now Nationwide Children’s Hospital) and she got sick days, but she could only use them after using up three (3!) vacation days.